pinky_poo_111

gr rrrrrrrrrrr.

in a bad mood........feel so alone.....don't know what to do, wish my dad was still around, i miss him soo muchh :-(. im getting upset just writing this. nothing seems to be going right, nothing ever has gone right, not really anyway. im still no where near my goal weight, and ive somehow got back to purging. for some reason i always resort back to it.....

things aren't good with my bf. hes not here, even though hes not really doing anything and he knows im by myself and upset. i think i might be having doubts. not about my feelings, or his, but....i dunno. i don't know anything anymore. its like i don't feel hes there for me, not truely.

i just don't know what to do